Saturday, February 15, 2014

R.E.M.I.N.I.S.C.E

Really don't understand why the thoughts of you and our older days came up into my mind suddenly tonight.....


there's sweet times, adorable memories, sad situations, but mostly there's this super large amount of regret..
we haven't been in contact for about.. 7 years..?
well, except for simple happy birthdays and merry Christmas' greeting..
yet all the memories came rushing into my mind tonight.

none of us knows the latest news about each other, and it seems that none cares also...
is it because of the drama that I've watched lately, about those high school sweet hearts that actually ended up with each other?
is it because those high school photos posted on path by one of our friends lately?
or is it because of the late comments on that one thread of facebook that once we chatted on?

most of the memories gone already..
our favorite song, the sound of your voice, home phone numbers, your guitar sound, the reason that drew us apart..
all blurred by the years gone by..

but it seems that even these years just can't erase some things, the books and cassette we've once borrowed, birth dates, lot's of 'first times', cell phone numbers, our dog names..

then i realize, that I have never tried that hard to get to know other people, as hard as I've tried to know you.
that you're the one I've got most of my first times with..
that it took me the longest time to move on from our story..
and that this little space in me will always be filled by you and will not be taken by anyone else.

I can't stop myself from thinking, do I owe you a thank you?
or is it actually sorry?